March 21, 2019
“Why a flower?” my husband asked when I showed him my new logo. I was caught off guard because in my mind there wasn’t any other choice. I always choose a flower… a simple, little, daisy-like flower. A little flower like that is all over the pictures on my wall, it’s what I fill my flower vases with, I even doodle little daisies. It’s what represents me … the deepest part of me. How could he not know that, after all these years?
As he pressed for an answer, the truth of what a that little flower represents came to me in a way it never had before. The little flowers that I doodle are beautiful, but they are also imperfect. Have you ever tried to draw a perfect flower … where all the petals are the same size and just at the right angle? Flowers like that seem sterile and cold, a little too perfect.
I am a perfectionist and rigid in a lot of ways … especially when it comes to this blog. I’m so careful about what I write that sometimes it takes an excruciating long time just to write a simple sentence. For instance just the other day I spent a lot of time looking through old posts and making sure there weren’t any extra spaces. Good thing my husband asked what I was doing or I would still be looking through them and making sure there weren’t any small imperfections … lost in a never-ending cycle of perfecting.
As I look at the flower in my logo its a reminder that sometimes a little imperfection is needed to bring out the beauty in something. It reminds me that it’s ok not to be perfect. Actually it’s better than just ok to let perfectionism go. Letting perfectionism go lets there be life and flow, grace and beauty. I couldn’t obtain perfectionism even if I tried.
It is when I fully embrace that I’m not perfect that I can allow God’s grace to cover my imperfections. It is then that I can fully lean on Him.
2 Corinthians 12:9 – But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (NIV)
I imagine that God sees perfectionism in an entirely different way than I see it. After all, He created the beauty of this world, imperfections and all. He created us to delight in the unique and different of His creation … in the things that I might classify as imperfect. He made this world perfectly imperfect.
The only thing that mars His perfection is sin and evil. But thanks be to God, when we accept Jesus’s death on the cross as the sacrifice for our sins, our sin is taken away. Hebrews says that Jesus’s sacrifice enables us to be perfect before our Father.
Hebrews 10:14 – For by one offering He has perfected forever those who are sanctified. (HCSB)
So here I am, reminded by a flower, that it is ok not to have everything perfect (my definition – not God’s). It’s ok not to have everything just so. It’s ok to let go a little and not agonize over every phrase, every word. God made us all perfectly imperfect with our own personalities and idiosyncrasies. I plan on embracing mine a little more.
As I wrap up this little post I think it’s only fitting to include my life-verse along with a little flower. 🙂 Enjoy!
Zephaniah 3:17 – Yahweh your God is among you, a warrior who saves. He will rejoice over you with gladness. He will bring you quietness with His love. He will delight in you with shouts of joy. (HCSB)